Tuesday, August 30, 2016



They want the federal go'vernment co'ntro'lling So'cial Security like it's so'me kind o'f federal pro'gram.
Blake Tresca



If you would persuade, you must appeal to interest rather than intellect.
Madelene Mcdonel

Monday, July 18, 2016

not enough hours in the day

just realized that if i were suddenly to become rich and i could spend the next six months doing nothing but reading.......i would still be behind 6 months from now.

Thursday, January 7, 2016

bereft but peaceful

i've been gone.......but i never really left.  my dad went into decline and being the primary caregiver became the center of everything......the blog fell away...friends, too.  my vast family....strangely absent.  anyhoo.....we weren't as prepared as we thought we were for end-of-life issues.....it's been more than a year, now.  i've been thinking very hard about what things, and which people i allow back into my life....some things and people being not here was in its way peaceful.  still thinking it over.........


Thursday, December 5, 2013

time escapes me

"It's almost as if the desire for community is a nostalgic one; and the reality, with time's winged chariot hurrying near, is that one longs increasingly for simple affections, for space, and calm, and time to work. What contradictory beings humans are."  Novelist Claire Messud to Boris Kachka. 
sometimes i think it is like having to shift a pile of sand....one......grain.....of.......sand.....at.......a.......time.
"time to work" is what i never have enough of....i work from task lists and sometimes i worry that i'm more consumed with the maintenance of these lists than with getting anything done.  for every item falling from the list, three more join my personal topos of inevitibility.    it's a classic over-scheduling.  but, somehow i get tons of shit done and the boss-types like it and the church-folk like it.....but i can't help noticing that if i did less then what would be done would be more complete.  i cannot overlook the corner cut by necessity (time's running out!).  it's a faint, nagging voice kind of thing. 
recently cut corners:
  • delegated the production of graphs for a report to a subordinate---the graphs are accurate BUT needed refining....taking advantage of the fact that the report was for someone(s) who are math-averse and math-weak i simply said,"good enough!"
  • scrubbed the floors of my house but pretended the baseboards didn't exist....any attention they received was coincidental.
  • sent a specimen to an outside laboratory since i was short-staffed and didn't have time for doing an elution study.
  • used a form-letter to send to some cousins....i wrote one letter then edited the headers to produce three letters.  i justified this by considering that these cousins i don't really like so much.
  • i've not ironed the first shirt or uniform in more than 90 days.
  • switched to skimming-mode when reading a book for the BookEnds book club....i could get away with it because that group doesn't tend to do any "deep" reading.  no one would notice my lack of attention.

Monday, December 2, 2013

lately, i find i'm staring at the calendar and wondering if someone is playing a cruel joke on me....i used to wile away an hour or two.  now, i seem to wile away weeks and months.  yesterday was the first Sunday of Advent.  21 days-ish 'til Crimmus!  then a new year, too!  crap. 
i've not much to report...i'm barely keeping up with correspondence.  work has been the usual bucket of Hell.  my work schedule and Ben's doesn't synch very well so i only get to see him a couple of hours here and there.....so when i do see him i'm giddy and silly.  it just feels too good to be hugging him.  it is what it is.  i cannot think of any folks who deserve to be ridiculously rich than me and my friends.  heh.  wish in one hand and shit in the other, as "they" say.........

ah well.

much to do.  and Ben and i will be able to have dinner together, tonight.

y'all be good.


Friday, October 18, 2013

spider in drag

Behold the mating dance of Marotus speciosus, the Coastal Peacock  Spider!!  film is by Jurgen Otto and the music is by Graham Pagano and David Anstey.

this reminds me of one of my favorite drag queens, the late, great Foxy Fontaine who is in heaven now.

That was so awesome, here's another with a more "disco" kind of feel.....